Before you start thinking that I’m some sort of psycho who has a split personality or something, I think that you should know that the bad memories haven’t suddenly disappeared. They’re all still there, swirling around in my head. Where else would they be? After all, they’re a part of me. I just have to make sure that I don’t let myself become obsessed with them again. That’s all. Not that it isn’t hard sometimes. […]
In honor of the return of the old(er but wiser) Sophia Green, I have decided to devote this week’s journal entry to a happy recollection of my mother during her illness. Because, you know what? There are good memories. Even when my mother was sick we had good times. Where do you think it was that I learned that happiness is a choice? ***** It was summer (my mother’s last), and it was scorchingly hot. […]
After my father left for the funeral, I wrote everything down. Then, exhausted, I fell back to sleep. I slept all day. In fact, I slept for such a long time that when I finally woke up, the sun had all but disappeared from sight, and the scary shadows that always seem to appear with the late-afternoon sky had already invaded my room. For a moment I was confused and disoriented. Why was I still […]
The most terrible, horrible thing has happened. Elise’s mother is dead. Dead. I can’t believe it. It can’t be true. It can’t be. But it is. My father came into my room this morning after I’d hit the snooze button on my alarm clock for the second time (I always hit it three times every morning) and said that he had something important to tell me. I was kind of confused, because I wasn’t completely awake yet, […]
We celebrated Easter yesterday. Big deal. Usually, I love Easter, but this year I wasn’t into it at all. I guess that I’m still just to obsessed with my past. It’s awful. The bad memories just keep flooding my brain. I try pushing them away, but they’re so anxious to be recollected that they’re practically tripping over one another in some sort of crazy race to see which one of them can reach my consciousness […]
As I think I mentioned at the beginning of this journal, Passover has always been my favorite Jewish holiday. That’s because my grandparents have a huge Seder dinner, and everybody comes. Family comes (aunts, uncles, and first cousins, and second cousins, and third cousins twice removed), and friends come, and friends of friends come. Over the years, the Seders have gotten so large that my grandmother had to have extra leaves made for the dining room […]
My brother and I spent this past weekend at my aunt’s house. We hadn’t visited in a really long time, so she invited us to spend the night. My father dropped us off at her place on his way to the office on Saturday morning, and we spent the day trailing around after my two older cousins, who doled out attention as they saw fit. Then, we stayed up way too late watching television and […]
On Saturday night my father took me into the city to see the musical West Side Story (an updated musical version of Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet). The show is touring around the country for a few months before heading to New York in the Fall (for a Broadway revival or something), and my father surprised me by getting tickets for their opening-night performance. It was fantastic! I love seeing plays and musicals performed live. The film version […]
I am so happy. For the first time in my life, I haven’t been asked to write a “story” or to keep a “diary” about my Florida vacation. As I think I may have already mentioned, when I was in Elementary School, my teachers always gave me a list of the assignments that I was going to miss while I was away (so that I wouldn’t fall too far behind on my schoolwork). At the […]
As I predicted, Walt Disney World is exactly as I remembered it – preserved for eternity just like Walt Disney, himself. I don’t know if you’re aware, but there is this really scary rumor that when he died, instead of burying him, Walt’s family had him frozen through some sort of weird scientific process. Apparently, the idea is to keep him like that until scientists figure out how to keep old, sick people alive indefinitely. […]
